Often, peace comes at times when you least expect it. It was a rough process. Something that I actually didn't have to go through if I've been more convicted. My mind seems to be exploding all the time. I was frustrated, confused. I was short on fuse, even more than I usually am.

The patience of unanswered prayers, have paid off. Thank you Lord, for letting me struggle... even though I handled it terribly, and barely passed this lil test. You've put this into my heart, I'm sure. And I'm relieved and thankful.

The door has closed. The book is finished. But I know, there's another open door somewhere, sometime. And I know, there's a new book, waiting to be written.

And, you will orchestrate the things that will unfold before me, in time. And the contents of the new book, when the time comes, the first page to the last... I dedicate it to honor and glorify You.

Help me to trust you with all my heart, and not lean on my own understanding.

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths."

Proverbs 3:5


To me, this is...
A matter of extreme faith.
A matter of unwavering conviction.
A matter of unwithholding trust.
A matter of humble submission.
A matter of patience.
A matter of perseverance.
A matter of love for God.

But... why is it so hard?
Why is it so hard.. to trust Him with all my heart?